November's gone

Not even a vague memory,
but a dull ache;
November came and went,
before I could take!

Inconsolate yet

The pain of parting, after I let you go,
It's something I don't ever again want to know.

The ache is still just a thought away;
fresh, almost as if it happened just today.

Forgive me for the wrongs I have done to you,
in your very heart;
If destiny wills, I will be glad to play my part,
and make another fresh, clean start.

But that bewilderment and panic,
in your eyes;
wrenches my gut and the truth,
from my lies.

En Mass

Tonight, a thwarted nature
will claim its price;
stealing a thousand and more souls
shrouded by torrents that deceive our eyes.

But we, shall sleep and wake to another morn
while they, amidst fearsome throes,
shall from life' s breath be torn.

Helpless the world watches
as nature's furious anger lashes;
at man and beast, machine and stone,
glad at being a witness...and for now, for being left alone.

Hiatus Sayonara

When you are back
it's like you've never left;
there's hope,
there's inspiration, in the promise kept.

That Pink Rose...

In the early hours of the day
before the sun rose;
You stirred, woke.

To ask me for my name,
that unusual hour you chose;
as I sat silently pouring my heart to you.

Strangers no more,
We are now acquainted;
and I am wary of treading like a fool,
the path even angels fear to tread.

Still...I confess am glad for this day,
though it didn't all turn out my way;
Our moment shone through
the din and confusion ...a moment that did stay!

Awake

You have woken from the mystery sleep
that drowned you deep;
now wide awake,
you are stranger to all that you see...smell...hear and feel.

They say only time, can now heal;
We wait...

Illuminus

In the darkest of moments
and the dreariest of hours;
I have found a thought or two, of you;

found inspiration in the throes
of the deepest of desperation;
it must have been you.

Don't ever take this perception
away from me;
in the stygian gloom,
it is what would help me see.

Time spake

Though interminable and relentless
is the journey I make;
Even I, can not arrive
before my Time.

In limbo

Have the wheels of passion,
met the wheels of fate?
Have they stopped turning,
having arrived at that pearly gate?

But Time still plays,
in its unfathomable ways;
while you, caught between here and the hereafter,
wait to surrender to the Master.

Strength beyond years

Alone and unheard,
at the end of days;
they come to terms,
they mend their ways.

Unforgiven by the world,
unknown to many;
befriended by infirmity and pain,
they prepare to die...and to be born again.

...But once

The bride burns in shame,
the groom tucks into a new game;
the petals crushed as emotions blushed,
while eternity bore witness to what must.

I just left them there

My feelings, my fear;
i spoke to them, i made it clear.

Long i have played with them,
bouncing them off those walls that just stood there;
as my hopes and dreams crashed and vanished,
year after year.

Exposed

Tear and burn
the garb of plea and play;
stark and sweaty,
make love, may hay.

Beyond ploy and pout,
pushed to the core;
let it reveal the truth,
maybe a little bit more.

Silence I know

Imperfection strained,
through the shrouds of experience;
until... on gossamer wings,
it floats into deep silence.

Backlogged

Oh that luggage,
each time i turn a page;
paper-weighting each fresh start.

Gotta get me a new book,
disengage from the all too familiar game;
maybe even get a brand new pseudonym!

Deja Vu

Was it a twist in the fabric of time?
Or a glitch in the hardrive of my mind?
Or a warp in the continuum of space?
Or was it simply something I forgot to leave behind?

Changes

Shorn
...of pride, ego, want, love and lust;
Reborn
...watching mortal thoughts squirm and die in the dust.

Ol' Timers unquote

In the cafes where old men
sit, sip and soliloquise,
as distant memories
smoke and swirl in clouded eyes;
with a sudden bated breath, is revealed
the heady forgetfulness of younger days,
time hath simply not healed.

Time Bound

I knew you ages ago...

so what?

it was another you and another me.

Time has corrupted us both,

we are not what we used to be..or see.

But if something did abide,

neither of us will be able to hide -

when we meet again, if we meet again

...what we held deep inside.

Rhetoric

You agree
or deny,
in a careful play
of planned nods and shakes;
as we talk eye to eye.

The monument,
built with words filled with sound
crashes loudly,
as you turn around.

Chronos

As you tease
ghostly strips of memories,
silently flicker and fade
across the canopy of my mind.

I strain to stretch the moment,
grasp the tide;
i smell but a faint fragrance,
as you again run and hide.

Alter Egos

Questions, suggestions,
that probe and haunt;
emotional subterfuge,
that we unabashedly flaunt;
Call it virtue,
or even restraint;
the same thing makes one a sinner
and another, a saint.

Timewatch

No before, no after,

so caught up in the now;

one more reflection in the glass,

this moment too, shall come to pass.

How

How can one
see through
a mirror than can only reflect?

How does one capture light
on a surface
that can only deflect?

Eternal Optimist

No closer to tomorrow,

than I was yesterday;

failed i have yet again,

to make some hay.

memories did not spring to life,

expectations did not see daylight;

but I swear by thee Buddha,

someday soon they just might, they just might.

Pot luck

Unhappy fools are they,
who place their happiness
in another's look ...or lie.

Some happy fools among these,
have learnt the truth faster
...learnt it in the blink of an eye!

Life is...

Life is but..

the adjectives that define it

the nouns that populate it

and the verbs that enliven it.

Eternal Sadness

Nothing can be as personal as grief;
nor, as brief.
For tears once shed,
have also the pain, bled.

What remains is the guilt,
for things said...or left unsaid.

The Soul and the Garb

Bury me or burn me,

nothing that you would do,

could ever turn me in my grave.

The cloaks that I once wore,

have already died a million times ...or more.

Dey like dis

On a day like this,
I can wear my heart on a sleeve,
hit the road, catch the wind,
and playfully tweak the nose of time.

On a day like this
the cool breeze awakens memories warm,
that in your mind's eye conjure,
flashes of passion, rogue and pure.

On a day like this
separated by all sorts of distance, even rain,
one smells the sweet incense of longing,
untarnished even by pain.

Eternity

Thus I spake, from the book;

you never really bothered to closely look.

Hear you did the loud sermons;

the proud rantings of the obsessed hordes.

Roam you did, from religion to religion;

searched native peace in objective multitudes.

'Twas always just you and me; never the three,

Some found me right under a tree.

Zephyrus Again

Thrilling how Zephyrus blows cool and sprightly along the way,

the harbinger of hope heralding many a green day;

I breathe in the promise of a welcome spring,

dedicating him the best of what this season might bring.

Fate Vs Freewill

There's a small thought about Destiny and Freewill i remember from long ago

which I thought you should know;

Destiny decides how far you will travel

Freewill helps decide how fast you go!

An offering true

Not the flower, but the fragrance;
not the attar, but the aroma.
Not the incense, but its essence;
not the flame intense, but the homa.

Repeat Offender

Now is so pregnant

to deliver a thought or two;

Yet, after all that appalling labour,

I brought forth ...another you!

Nightlogic

What matters is that you stay true.

What if what he saw was not you

...but a pale shadow,distorted by shadows?

If you stay true,what does it matter where what begins

and where what ends, or where it goes?

So tempting to covet what we yearn;

Denied, in a sea of shame and sorrow we burn.

It is neither me nor you, just a chemistry;

the experiment could omnipresently fall flat, if the elements are not right!

It's just another four letter word, true;

but what if one said '#@&% you' instead of '$#%@ you'?

A Lifeshed

My heart sings a silent requiem
for someone lost from our midst;
life ceased to matter with one last painful paroxysm,
in seconds you stared into the blue sky your soul kissed.
Adieu never-dying soul
today you are set free;
from another existence you had willingly sought,
...and this freedom that with your life you bought.

The eagle soars to descend;
in the beginning lies the end.

And yet

And yet, some things are best left unspoken;

for what a heart desires, a mind denies.

Puresoul

The light of a thousand Suns

wakes me, shocks me back to purity.

Pain my guide, peace the goal:

fill my life with goodness and fulfilment,

thou kindly old soul.

Let not my doubt cast a shadow,

let not my disbelief distance me;

It is your light am really looking for,

yet it is that I cannot bear to see.

Caligulus cometh

love teases

lust rapes;

in the dark shadows

behind drawn drapes.

As always...

Always looking for the strength to smile

in the face of it all;

Always searching for the courage to stand up,

each time I fall.

Ghost in the machine

Sometimes I feel like a product whose expiry date is over,

and everything i write is an obituary;

I dwell like a ghost in my thoughts and dreams,

wafting and drifting through a wordy sanctuary.

Eerie me!

CSR

Some eat to live,

while some live to eat;

Ahh the life of the one

who has to clean up the street.

You, sublimated

The quite mesquite and the whistling sage

in the near desert wastes;

take me back to a long forgotten land

and to long letters of love written in the sand.

Legends now lay in the grass,

witness to the times that did pass;

Of rockn'roll dreams and highways zipping past

...of fleeting moments of glory that did not last.

Sole survivor and hunter hoary and cold

among modern laws of concrete jungles;

still hunting and searching

for that hidden gold.

Amidst strange twists of fate

that around every bend lie in wait;

the thought of meeting you still

keeps me from gettin' old.

The Perpetual Seeker

A wanderer I am,

an adventurer old;

i roam far and wide

and my passions never go cold.

Him & Me

Destiny is that which is 'event-ually' bound to happen;

Freewill is just acceleration or deceleration of such 'eventualities'.

The Laughing Buddha

From the murky depths of melancholy
float bubbles of evanescent mirth,
that tumble and ruffle thy girth.
A veritable rebirth...however effervescent.

Hi

Too big for words,too complicated for logic;
Too insignificant for your attention,too ephemeral for magic.
That's my universe.
Welcome to it!